Honestly

I have been away for days now. Been isolated from all. But was not panicked as other times.

I needed the time to look into the details of my life. I sent away all the things and the people who distract me from this process.

Have I found out about me? About my needs and all the things I want to do, to be?

Hmm...not yet. I think it will be a long journey. But now I am prepared for it.

I find my self in a mood to take things at my own pace. Cannot go any faster and cannot go any slower.

During this process I know that I will face my demons, I know I will cry and I know that I will not want to exist anymore....familiar feelings. So familiar, I am not afraid of them anymore.

Honestly.