Hate my job

My boredom hasn't left me. Not, that I have done anything to stop it...

I am going through the phase "Really don't give a f*** about anything or anyone".

On Friday boss called me in and practically humilated me in front of everybody saying about me going to work, late in the mornings. I did not say a single word. I guess he was right. But even if he wasn't I still wouldn't open by mouth to defend myself. I do go late to work, cause as I wake up I keep thinking that it's going to be another day of me doing nothing from the things I like. NOTHING.

Later on, this friend of mine, and one of the bosses there, asked me what was wrong and why I was in a bad mood. "Is it your work? You don't like it". I nodded, yes, I did not like it and I felt that I wasn't good at it. And of course, cause she is clever and she knows me pretty well, she must have guessed that another reason was my thoughts on "Am-I-Right-for-this-work" thing. Ok, so it's better than the previous ones in many aspects. Can't complain about that. On the other hand, to be really the best at this job you have to be constatly in a good, even "hyper" mood. And I am not! Rarely, these past few years. So I am not fit for this field I guess.

But job is not my only problem these days. Anyway, in another post the other ones. Got to go and write these "happy" articles... HELP!