Last Sunday I had one of the most truthful conversations of the last months.
Was at a friend's house, sitting on the porch, talking about travel, life, the summer.
She and I, have something in common. We both need to get away, even for a few months.
She's been planning a trip to Latin America whereas I am not sure where to head to (hell, I am not even sure if I will ever manage to "escape").
The last two times we got together we talked about my feelings towards love, men and women. She knows me pretty well, she knows parts of my love life. So, by now, she knows that I need to have the chance to be able to choose. But to choose I need to see both sides.
So at some point she said " You need to get away, go someplace else and see who you are. You tell me that you need to belong. But in order for you to belong to someone or in a relationship, first of all you need to belong to yourself".
She was right, God I know.
But it's been so long since the last time I really knew who I was. It's like someone else is running my life and let me tell you, they ain't doing a good job!
My friend's words are since then in my head.
And also this trip I need to take. Even for a few months. I need to start over.
4 comments:
I really love that picture. The curves, the wood looks so smooth, I want to touch it.
And yeah you do need to learn who you are before you can find a place to fit in. If you find a quick way of doing this, let me know, ok?
i agree with ur friend as i experienced it myself..thats how i was feeling and decided to come to london..i had fantasies about woman but never experienced before,always said that i would try when someone comes,id try..and she came,straight away i came to london...she was a friend at first and she is the love of my life now...going away makes you find out more about yourself...listen to ur heart,follow ur heart..its worth it..
Hi girls
Jenima, as soon as i find the way I will let you know. But if you do find it first, my all means, I am all ears :) ( yeah the photo makes you want to touch the smooth surface of the guitar)
Fairy, welcome to my blog. Yes I know what you mean. Living in a closed-knit society, is hard enough to experience what you really want. But it's a huge risk and a whole new world that seems to me really scary and difficult to follow...
hiya
good luck on your quest, I hope you find what you are searching for...
ciao4now x
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